Here I Am Vodka Land

Last night I went to Vodka Land in a huge way and dished out some self punishment that any Sadomasochist could be proud of. You see, I was both the S and the M. Must be the duality of my nature. (Being a previous bisexual and all.)

Getting through this day in a fog was unbelievably hard but somehow I did it. I think it was through the help of the Divine, my 2 old friends and my 2 new friends at work.

You see, I've been focusing so much on what I lost, that I have failed to realize all that I have gained. Formerly so focused on my "not the girlfriend", I neglected myself and all those around me except her.

So, we laughed a lot today and I was just downright close to hysteria. Once again, my gay man coworker dinged me. I love him for it because he's such a little smart ass.

Since I was so close to hysteria and just darned near manic, I looked at him and said, "I'm sorry. I think I've lost my mind."

To which he replied, "Oh girl, you lost your mind sometime back in the 70s!!!"
Extra ding because he's a full 20 years younger than me. I just love gay men.

The Lucky Angry Lesbian

11/17/05