Pity Party

Today I Cried All Day At Work

I still don't understand it. We had so MUCH fun together. We were the best of friends and we had awesome sex (yes both of us) and in an instant - she just threw it all away.

You see, I'm still grieving the loss of this relationship. SHE does not understand that ALL of it is destroyed. I have lost all trust and respect for her. There is absolutely nothing left and STILL I grieve. Perhaps that makes me the biggest fucking fool on the Planet Earth.

This will be one of the times in my life when I really TOTALLY write someone off. In time, I will not CARE what she's doing, I will not CARE about her boyfriend. I will not CARE about the baby girl she will give birth to in October, my birth month. If fact, she will have this child two DAYS within my birthday.

How do I know this? I just DO. I have seen it in a vision.

But in this vision, I see the little girl dressed all in pink and "my not the girlfriend" guiding her by her head through a door. The child is ABSOLUTELY beautiful. The little girl looks so much like her. And somehow, I stand there watching the whole scene. NO WHERE in this picture is the man who impregnated her. It's just plain weird.

If all of it comes to fruition, I'm also putting another SMALL advertisement on Ebay and FIVE Metropolitan newspapers about my newly found psychic ability.

The VERY Sad Angry Lesbian

12/01/05