Human Spirit
Say It Isn't So

Today, I witnessed the ugliness that can be the human spirit. I'm at home with a nasty sinus infection so I headed off to the Doc in Box here in my local neighborhood. I was driving behind what looked like a big, black and rather new Lincoln of some sort. Neither one of us were going fast as it's a residential area here.

Just then, I saw a little squirrel start out and he darted across the street. The Lincoln made NO attempt to brake, swerve, slow or anything. He or she just clocked the little guy. I couldn't believe what I had just seen and how MEAN and CRUEL this action was by this person. What on Earth could have happened to them to make them this mean spirited?

I slowed and looked at the little guy but it was too late. His tailed twitched in the throws of death. When I passed by later, he was totally still, little mouth open, expired. I was tempted to go back and at least move him off the road. On the other hand, I was afraid I might be CLOCKED while trying to move him.

In this Christmas Season with the actual day just 4 days out, I wonder where are the acts of kindness and giving? Will the Good Lord let me witness some of this as opposed to the evil act I just viewed? Makes the sinus infection seem that much worse and my head pounds harder now.

And on another note, I had a dream this morning that she walked up to me and said she was pregnant. Only....the person looking at me was one of my first girlfriends who in fact has had a little boy. The face was wrong but the circumstances were to be those of my current ex.

"How far along are you?" I asked.

"Three months. " She responded.

"Well, your timeline is all messed up then. You claimed you only started up with this guy in October."

And so...the lying goes on and on and on even in my dreams. (And in real life as well.)

I was jerked out of the dream not wanting to experience any more of the pain that still comes when I think of her. Symbolically, in my mind, I let her go just like the scene in the Titanic where Rose lets go of Jack and he goes floating ever so slowly down into the Ocean. She - survives.

So...where's the humor? I know I usually write something funny. Today, I'm not feeling very funny.

People!!! Shape up out there. Quit running over squirrels and be nice to all of God's creatures including each other! That's an order from me, The Angry Lesbian.

Signing Off,

The Angry Lesbian
12/21/05

P.S. So be careful out there. It's a dangerous game navigating the Human waters.