Forgiveness
I Met With Her Tonight

So, the Angry Lesbian is not so angry anymore but I promise, I will still write my observations on this crazy life in as humorous a manner as I possibly can. Because as you all know, this shit called LIFE is just so ridiculous sometimes that we just HAVE to laugh at it. Otherwise, we'd all be putting bullets in our brain pans.

I asked her forgiveness today. I am convinced that in my pain I said and wrote some things that were damaging to her and she needed to know that I was very sorry for that. Sometimes, in pain, we strike out at one another and that's just not right. It's totally wrong.

Meeting with her proved a very healing experience for both of us, I think. It became evident to me that this separation was brutal for both of us. Not just for me...but for her too. You see, when you hurt someone else, abandon them, even when not intending to hurt, it hurts YOU far worse. If anyone reads this post, say a prayer for her especially. The essence, the core of her, contains a beautiful soul and spirit otherwise I could have NEVER loved her so. I pray for her recovery and for her self love. It is long overdue.

On another note, if any of you really need a book that may change your life forever, RUN...don't walk, to your nearest bookstore and get "The Four Agreements" by Ruiz. No matter what your issue, read it again and again. Let it sink in and live the way it suggests. I will be reading this thing until the pages wear thin and I must obtain another copy.

Okay, so at the end of our meeting, I confessed something really fucked up that I did last night and she laughed her ass off at me. It's OUR secret so I can't tell you guys, but suffice it to say...I still have much to learn. And, to the person that I offended, I am TRULY sorry. Oops!

Be GOOD to yourselves. If you're not good to YOU, how can you expect anyone else to be?

Signing Off,

The Healing Angry Lesbian
01/10/06